Hello Tumblr-ers

Hmm well really wish that I could gain just a little more meat on me :{

Okay, yes, I know I’m skinny. But I’m not bulimic, nor anorexic. I don’t have whatever eating disorder disease either. I’m totally tired of people telling me how skinny I am. Hellooooo? I know! I’ve been living in this body for almost 20 years. I was a fat baby and then I grew into this small figure.

I’ll be lying if I said I don’t care what people think or say about me. Of course I care. Society is so cruel. “You’re too thin, anorexic sicko!” or “You’re too fat, disgusting pig!”. Why should anyone be TOO fat or TOO thin? I’ve been told that I look like a walking skeleton my whole life. “Mar, kayaknya tambah kurus deh…”. Apaan sih kalian, saya selalu kurus deh perasaan grrr -,-*

So anyways, I’ve been trying to get fat since high school. I’ve been feeling so insecure of my body, really. I tried everything! Ate before bed, drank milk everyday, took various weight gain pills, vitamins, I’m not on drugs (never and will never be), went to a nutritionist, and I even tried eating junk food everyday. I JUST CAN’T GET FAT. I tried out the Appeton Weight Gain milk that my friend has been drinking for a while. Shit man, it tasted like, errr, like vomit. Can’t drink it. Ugh, wait, I need to throw up.

CIAO